Listen, I keep talking about how I’m struggling but I also know many others are too. I wish that all of this would end. This is usually when my thinking goes to another place. Either I can take myself out and let my daughter get my three insurance policies or sit here and take the crap that I have to endure because society says it’s bad to off yourself. I have yet to understand why the police have the right to arrest you and take you involuntarily to the psych ward. If you want to go, you should be able to go but that’s not what this post is about.
I am going to tell you some of the things I have considered as a single mom to a child with special needs to make some extra money.
Part Time Medical Coding and Coding
I have been doing this for years now. It is futile. You have recruiters that happen to call and give you tests, etc but then the job falls through. So you’ve taken tests and gotten all this info for them and the deal falls through. It has happened to me twice.
I also have to get my CPT skills back to where they were when I was working in a doctor’s office. In my field, we only code diagnosis codes. We have those rules down BUT CPT coding is hard when you haven’t done it in 7 years. In addition to this, the codes change every October, the coding books are expensive, and it’s just a pain.
Apps for Freelance Work
I live on Indeed and other apps for jobs, but I also use Fiverr and Upwork as I am trying to blog for a little bit of change on the side. No luck so far and I did get someone that tried to scam me. If they try to get you to use an app such as WhatsApp to talk to them or charge you a fee, just turn the job down. I really thought I had a job. Upwork is okay because you get to bid and submit proposals and, if you don’t get the job, you get the bid points back. I go for medical virtual assisting and blogging.
As you can see, no one has picked me up for blogging, so I just blog for myself. Fiverr has gotten me nothing. I don’t know what to do to do better but pay and that’s not plausible at this stage. I am working to get MORE money, not SPEND more money.
I take surveys for a few pennies if they acce4pt them. Sadly, I do QMee and the ones that Google gives. There are other programs but they ask you to pay money in order to try out games and the like. Google gives you points which you can use in apps so I don’t mind because I don’t like to spend money on games. There are a lot of game reward apps out there but then, the higher you go up, the more you have to spend money IN the game to get the rewards. In Rewarded Play, I used to get Chipotle gift cards for just playing the game but the farther up you go, the more you have to spend your money. But you’re trying to GET money so the purpose is defeated.
I have been looking into being a test subject, donating blood, I don’t have that many eggs to donate and they wouldn’t pass because of my medical and family history. But the BIGGEST thing I have thought to do is to be a dominatrix. I have always been asked to do it since my 20s because there are a lot of White men that want a tall, strong, Black woman to humiliate them. I am not a fan of humiliating people, but I will if someone pays me. I don’t like spitting on people and all the other things but … they pay.
I can wear a good corset to cover this belly until I get it back to where it was. I started looking into it because a TikToker that does it said to go to a dungeon and ask for training. They want you to practice being dom or sub. I don’t want to be a sub but that would be how you learn how they feel. I started looking for dungeons near here and I only found one. I think it’s going to be hard to find because they are usually underground. I was close to doing that in my early 30s when a partner of mine and I used to associate with some people in that lifestyle (yes, the hypersexuality from bipolar disorder is a thing which is why they do their best to keep me from going manic). I want to learn and maybe find some clients. Or I could do sessions on Only Fans. But who am I kidding? I’m 43. I don’t look it, but this belly does. I can do away with it though. Since I’m still losing weight, I can get back to trying to lean out.
I even looked up a class for learning how to do it but there are plenty of people that didn’t need a class but just learned. The cheapest option is to find a dungeon BUT they are usually in the upper-class area of DC. Yes, DC has freaks, always has and always will.
I can’t be a stripper. That’s just a joke in itself. I can’t dance. I would need to take some pole dancing lessons. I had a pole dancing get together and the next day I was in pain. Also, most classes are in Virginia or DC. I don’t drive in DC and the VA classes are expensive. There is one in MD but I’m not sure. Again, I am being forced to spend money to get money which is not the goal. I want to earn more money so I can stop having to ask people for help. I know that people say to let people help you, but you start to feel worthless when you KEEP having to ask.
In the End …
I’m not, nor have I ever been, a lazy person. I have tried so many things. I suggested going back into retail or just stocking a store, but the therapists don’t suggest that due to my temper. People are extremely mean and nasty to those that they think are below them. I worked at KMart in my teens, and I don’t ever want to go back to retail but I will if that means I can feed my greedy daughter, pay my rent, and not go back to the psych ward.
Thank you for reading. These are just the things that I think about and try to do to make it in this world. It’s extremely hard but I’m trying to hang on because people keep telling me they need me around and my daughter needs me. I listen and do what society tells me to do but I’m not very happy at all.
Please read some of my more upbeat posts about things like dating sites. Here’s one: Jeepers CREEPERS!!!! It’s from 2014 but still is true.