What if all the “heroes” were people like me with passive suicidal ideation?
I was thinking about this the other day. I would take a bullet for people so I could die, not just to save them. That’s really bad.
I thought of like a whole series on people that just want to die but can’t because the opportunity just doesn’t present itself. I’d jump in front of anyone just to die at this rate.
Life sucks. Yes, I said it.
Rantings of a Mad Woman 
I had a friend who spoke of suicide. A few days later he walked in on a drug deal gone bad, dove in from of the girl the dealer was shooting at, took a bullet to the back of the head and died. He went out a hero.
He was a hero. Saved a life by giving the one he didn’t want.
I occasionally feel like that too. Sometimes I just want to die and think what it would be like to just not wake up. If you think about it, heroes have to be at least a little suicidal to get into messy situations all the time.