I Usually Hate Mondays But….
I had a good day today because I was off to run some errands. I got some extras along the way.
Of course my daughter decided to move like a zombie even though she was going to summer camp but we’re just going to ignore that part. Afterward, I came home, change my clothes, and put makeup on to make a trip to the MVA. COVID has made it easier because we can make appointments. I was in and out. I was happy about that. I even made it a point not to look homeless. Gonna be stuck with that license pic forever. Don’t worry, I had on a jacket so I could look professional.
I had to laugh though because they kept the weight I had many years ago which was 187 lbs. I am over 230 lbs and told them to put that but they didn’t so whatever.
Next Was the Doctor
Because I have been, again, doing everything I was supposed to be doing as far as diet and exercise but still not losing weight, I wanted to be checked again for diabetes. Yall know what happened last time when my Seroquel stopped working after 8 years So I Have Diabetes. The last time I was tested, my AIC was at 6.1 which is pre diabetic. Because I am still not losing weight, I wanted to be tested to make sure that there isn’t some sort of endocrine issue. I have PCOS as well which is a contributing factor.
I love my NP as she really seems like she cares. When I told her where I was (because they always have to ask about your mental health and wanted to know why I had a COVID test), she genuinely cared. One thing that I can always say about my docs is that they really let me know that they care. My GYN told me maybe like 12 years ago (when I went to the psych ward the first time) that he was concerned about me period. Even my psychiatrist does. That kind of caring is hard to come by.
Either they all care of they’re just great actors. LOL
I Got My Treadmill
I don’t think I said it on here but, some weeks ago, I ran 3 miles in 47 minutes after not running for over a year. I was so happy and was pretty much HIGH off that accomplishment for about a week or so. My therapists told me that I needed to invest in a treadmill if it made me feel that good as the community center that I went to makes you wear a mask while running and I literally can’t do that. I need my peace of mine back and, to run on a treadmill, is a high for me.
They delivered and put it together yesterday and I broke it in today. I started Couch 2 5k from the beginning again just to be consistent. But that really made me happy. I didn’t run that much today but I ran. I’m just concerned about my downstairs neighbors. I might write them a note telling them I will be running for about an hour a day and around what time so they will know. It won’t be early or anything. I don’t want to disrupt their peace.
I Got a Book that Made Me Happy as a Child
I have been doing the things that made me happy as a child to help me just stay in a good mental space. Besides coloring and playing games, I looked at some things that brought me joy. Where’s Wallace? is one my all time favorite books as a child. It wasn’t just the fact that I loved books but this book was pretty different in that there were words but the pictures were great and you could learn the stories of other characters from the pictures accompanied by words.
When my daughter was little, I would get it from the library for her so that she could know my joy.
The Best Part of My Day
My roommate in the psych ward called me today. I was SO happy to hear from her. When I think about it, she wasn’t supposed to even be in the psych ward. What happened to her was not a psychiatric issue. But somehow, we met for a reason. When she called me, of course I cussed her out. LOL It’s love though. LOL I had been calling her phone but they had put her BACK in the ward until they recognized that she had a condition that had nothing to do with a mental illness. So she went to a better hospital. She has lodging for now and I plan to see her soon so she can meet my daughter and the animals.
While I was on the phone, I started coloring again and smiled a lot.
These days are few and far between and I just had to share because we have to talk about the good and the bad.
Today, I learned further that a lot of people care for me. My neighbor downstairs even gave me her number (the one that yelled at me because she didn’t see my dog). She said that she is always there and that, if I need a break, she will gladly take my daughter for a bit.
I have to say that I am very thankful for my village and I will talk about everyone in my Aftermath series. There are a lot of people that love me and care for me. They want to help me but I really have to work on accepting help from others. My job pays for a program and one of the challenges that I had to take note of was accepting help from other people. I let my mother wash my clothes. That’s all I’ve done so far. I will try to do better.
In the End….
This Monday was a great day and I am proud of myself for not being too overwhelmed. I also learned that looking nice actually repels men from me so I was doing it all wrong. I mean, one dude tried to talk to me under the guise of talking about my dog (as they always do) BUT it wasn’t as bad as when I dress homeless. Thanks to everyone for reading. I hope you guys have a great day as well. With all that is going on in the world, we have to take all the happiness we can get from even the smallest things.